its a while.

i keep telling myself that i would blog one day but i'll always ended up not to. life has been bad, i guess. cried a little bit a few days ago. felt kinda better right now.

someone talked to me about mixing around or just go out to enjoy life. life sucks. i dont think i want to join it anymore. well, that's what i always tell myself. why should i enjoy? i'll end up feeling horrible and depressed all over again. so, what's the point? someone pointed out my facebook statuses. why so emo and dramatic? im not a drama queen, am i? ugh. the thought of being so drama just to get a particular someone's attention. i think that's what the fuck have been doing. wanting this person to notice me and the things i do. im tired. why the fuck i bother?

i give up. working is much more stress relieving. i dont have to think about you and people. yes, i need to work more, work harder, work even more harder. this fucking pay isnt enough for anything. working distracts me. working is enjoyable. fuck myself. i have no fucking life anymore.


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