☮ 20100425 23:46


mhm. trying to blog with the iPhone. i guess it's working perfectly. well, the room is kinda crowded since mum invited her friends from Indonesia over. hope that it won't be for too long. i don't really like male visitors coming home. and this reminds me.. there was a lady that wanted to introduce me to her brother who is working as an army. ugh. i hope he doesn't fucking calls me. why the fuck did i remind myself of this fucking incident? dammit

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☮ 00:08


its been a while i last posted here.

well, i got rejected by ttsh which it leads me to a (well not really depression, anyway i'll call it..) major disappointment. felt like everything is the end. i didnt want to go out of the room, just lay on the bed thinking of life.

summarised everything. missed the previous ward party and made some friends pretty upset. but its all settled after the interview with the community hospital which i randomly applied. eversince, life's been amazing. got an iphone and a new job. yay.


just hope i wont screw this new job too. (:

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☮ 20100405 03:20


btw, i took lots and lots of the red-eared slider. so fucking cute!
























// sorry double picture, if you notice

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☮ 02:39


just applied job at some near hospitals. just hope i get it.

being jobless for almost a week is like being in a stagnant dream. nothing's happening, time is wasting. i wished i did have to leave. but then again, i'll fucked it up anyway.

btw, i realised people do really care. but then, why are they caring? they must be fucking wasted or something. or is it because they took pity on me? fuck, i need to stop being an asshole.


and i miss my mum so much ):

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☮ 20100403 00:18


this week marks the end of my first job. i cant help it but to feel like a major failure. life sucks, really.

but then again, seeing the kids without parents and having to share a room with bunch of people sucks more. im just being a whiny fucker. i need to just shut the fuck up and feel fortunate.


and this year, im going to let the past go. i have let the tortoises go where they ought to be and i hope i could let these thoughts of you go too. mayb i have already did but i never realised it. still, sometimes i miss chatting with you online. you were like my first love that i never had. sigh.











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