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20100327
20:43
fuck. i cried a little yesterday. i think my heart died too. these few days i have been fucking it all up. this fucking giddiness just wont fucking go away. i feels like a boat ride. like anyone fucking cares, they kept saying "OMG! ARE YOU PREGNANT!?" like FUCK NO. why should i fuck someone? i feel so fucked up. mayb im just exhausted mentally and physically. i dont really eat properly these few days anyway. ugh. sometimes, i really wished i would just collapsed in front of them. i have lost my mind, officially. i feel like everything i do this NEVER good enough for certain people. i really did my best. mayb that's what i thought? my best was not good enough. im not a confirm registered staff. im a failure if they doesnt confirm me next month. i dont feel like talking to any of the 'big people'. i just want to know if im good enough to be confirm. i feel like a fucking disappointment. i feel like im an attention-seeker. i fucking hate myself. why am i even still here? why the fuck am i still fucking here? btw, when are they going to get the fuck out? not they, just him. fuck. Labels: fuck, im sorry you had to read this he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20100326
00:28
although seeing your adorable face makes me happy, i feel so idiotic each time i made a fool of myself in front of you. i need to shut the fuck up, srsly. Labels: im sorry you had to read this he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20100321
22:59
hello love, just one more day. well, today was okay. MARKSIM SAID THAT I BULLY HIM, WHICH IM SURE I DIDNT! AHA. (: Labels: working he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20100317
01:23
i met him on this day and had my heart broken with a simple note. Labels: im sorry you had to read this he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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01:13
my love, this 21st birthday was slightly better than the other birthdays but not as epic as when mike goh and friends actually wished me one day later. Still after screwing up at work and fucking it all up, i realised i should just fucking shut my mouth and do what people told me to do and not to just take it lightly. I cried so much last saturday that my eyes were swollen till that night. And i wont want to except anything from this woman anymore. Thank you for celebrating my birthday and i fucking regrets it. ): Labels: off day(s), working he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20100301
01:34
heyhihello - brighter lights Sir, shake my hand- it's a pleasure to meet you I'm not trying to waste your time my name is Miserable & Full of Regret but, I'm trying to change that line up in my head are all the times that I've seen you and wished that you were dead but one by one, they turn and point at me until i wish my demise instead because, I've heard all the things you say to me to hold my head high and pick up my feet but, i think you'll agree I'm not quite ready to go we can look up we can let go of this tonight because we are alive, and we're not alone I'm finding love within the light without a doubt, i am full of hesitation I'm positive that I'm unsure that the disease in my lungs that is keeping me from singing is so lonely without a cure inside my heart, just a few inches over i can hear a stronger beat it's the only thing that keeps me alive the only thing that drives my feet because I've heard what you've said and i figured it out to hold my head high and just go about with a smile on my face because i know, in the end, the sun will come out again we can look up we can let go of this tonight because we are alive, and we're not alone I'm finding love within the light I'll say, "i believe you when you tell me there is still a silver lining" I'll say, "i believe you when i wake up and the sun is brightly shining" because I've heard what you've said and i figured it out to hold my head high and just go about with a smile on my face because i know, in the end, the sun will come out again we can look up we can let go of this tonight because we are alive, and we're not alone i'm finding love within the light // why is it my heart skips a beat when i see you? Labels: heyhihello, lyrics he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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01:28
![]() for no reason, i miss staying awake till early morning. just like before the heartache and all. Labels: day off(s) he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥ |