its April's fool day.


i feel down in the dumps. my uncle in Msia just passed on.. i dont think i cld forget how my mum react on Sun. she cried alone in the living room. i know i wld not understand how she felt at that time. i teared and accompany her in the silence. i still cldnt forget how i felt when..

btw, this few days been bad. i dont feel so good. i hardly eat a proper meal. all i want to do this to ignore this miserable life and..

i have been having this weird dreams. a particular person has been appearing in my dreams for days. i sure wished he didnt talk to me in private on the last day of attachments. maybe this wont happen at all. seriously, i dont want to be a 3RD-YEAR-STUDENT. i have this feeling that im going to screw the future attachments. if only life have a pause-button; "life will be GREAT!" *attempts to mimic Ryan Higa*


you know, i have been thinking of some things and someONES. like;

1. KANG PHIL JIN - when i listen to a korean song, i'll always try to rmb how he speaks korean on the phone. c'mon.. it sounded like some strange language.
2. LUQMAN - his bday was ytd.
3. HIRMARWAN (something like that) - my sis mention his name. he rmbs me?
4. ASYIKIN - busy busy busy busy sis. too busy to blog and msn/sms me. *sigh*
5. TOKIO HOTEL cd - i need this.
6. BILL & TOM KAULITZ - they're like woah. i hope Bill is okay now..
7. someone's photo on friendster - he looks different. is it really him?

well, its mostly ppl. but, abt today.. what's with 'HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL'? why wld some who is fooled be happy? and why April and not March? this makes no sense, just like this whole typed-out crap.

Labels: death, kaulitz twins, randoms thoughts, ryan higa

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥