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20080428
23:51
today is marked as SOUL GARDEN DAY. yes, the grp went there to 'makan'.           now, im totally broke. and guess who's not here.. Labels: pictures, seoul garden he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20080416
00:41
still awake. the worst day in NYP is over like finally. we almost 'died'. btw, it was raining and pouring that i had to.. take train to AMK and bck home. but i saw mum on the way. then, met my ygr sis. bought some stuffs. im tired; both emotionally & physically.  "Are you even listening when I talk to you? Do you even care what I'm going through? Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me. You're right there but it's like you never knew me." THE VERONICAS - revenge is sweeter (than you were) Labels: candles he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20080407
02:00
TOKIO HOTEL - "On The Edge" Its getting light outside She is still there but no one cares They sang her Happy Birthday yesterday without her Do you want to see yourself flying through the night? This gift is what you need You're gonna be alright Eyes close and fall Her first time on the edge The scars will stay forever Side to side with death A moment that feels better Darkness and light are blinding her sight She's not coming back Its getting light outside She cannot sleep 'cause time stands still Someone's hand is touching her, she has no will Each time when it hurts, she just feels so alone She doesn't care at all Her memories are long gone Eyes close and fall And closer to the edge The scars will stay forever Side to side with death This time feels even better Darkness and light are blinding her sight She's not coming back She shuts the door She longs for more and more And more She shuts the door She longs for more and more And more Just once more Everyone is watching Her arms are so sore But she doesn't care anymore And falling from the edge The scars will stay forever Side to side with death This last time even better Darkness and light are blinding her sight She's not coming back The sky is casting over Her last wish stays unsaid Labels: lyrics, tokio hotel he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20080406
23:30
here's my 501st entry. just read a few previous-previous-previous entries. so way back that i hardly rmb i actually type it out until i read it. those stupidest-yet-memorable times. think again, it was fun and less frightening than the present. but still, i dont wish it to happen again. there i go again, random things. this year. someone's been soooo  i hardly eat properly this few days. still, my today is horrible. all i want to do is to lie on the bed and sleep. the thoughts just kept on tormenting me. i seriously need.. the TOKIO HOTEL cd / tees / (maybe) the bag which i've been eyeing since the moment i saw it on the net. Labels: moody, past, tokio hotel he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20080401
22:21
its April's fool day. i feel down in the dumps. my uncle in Msia just passed on.. i dont think i cld forget how my mum react on Sun. she cried alone in the living room. i know i wld not understand how she felt at that time. i teared and accompany her in the silence. i still cldnt forget how i felt when.. btw, this few days been bad. i dont feel so good. i hardly eat a proper meal. all i want to do this to ignore this miserable life and.. i have been having this weird dreams. a particular person has been appearing in my dreams for days. i sure wished he didnt talk to me in private on the last day of attachments. maybe this wont happen at all. seriously, i dont want to be a 3RD-YEAR-STUDENT. i have this feeling that im going to screw the future attachments. if only life have a pause-button; "life will be GREAT!" *attempts to mimic Ryan Higa* you know, i have been thinking of some things and someONES. like;
well, its mostly ppl. but, abt today.. what's with 'HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL'? why wld some who is fooled be happy? and why April and not March? this makes no sense, just like this whole typed-out crap.   Labels: death, kaulitz twins, randoms thoughts, ryan higa he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥ |
