☮ 20070926 01:44


just one day, so much had happened. yes. my heart still aches upon rmbing it. im tired. we are tired. just hope for a better day. this always happens when birthdays or something grand like hari raya drawing near. thus, making me hate birthdays more esp mine )X

hari raya falls on my father's bday, which makes it a double. how should i describe it? misery or happiness? there's a song that totally tells it all.


I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
With my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

Yeah
Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Lock the doors
Cause I like to capture this voice
it came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Tower over me
Tower over me

And I'll take the truth at any cost

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole



we are broken - paramore

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☮ 20070919 22:09


okay. i realised once i get older i tend to blog lesser and lesser about my life. maybe its a good thing. or not..? everything is kept within. i really do wished i could i rant like before. no. i wont. sigh. forget it. forget it. i just dont make any sense, right now. tired


here's a song i totally fell in love with after listening once thru. btw, one of the guys looked like PAUL TWOHILL (X


I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...


apologize - onerepublic

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☮ 20070916 19:00


tml, im going bck to CGH again.. oh well, i might get to see 'that doctor' again. just hope. just hope. i want to stay in the same team (X


guess what i did today


Nananananana..
Lari lari lari
aku lari tinggalkan semua ini
Untuk mencari-cari
cari ketenangan diri
Pergi pergi pergi
engkau pergi dari hidupku ini
Ku tak mahu mahu
engkau hadir dalam diri ini
Keluhan hatiku tak siapa yang tahu
Ku simpan semua sebak didada
Biarpun ku yang terluka
Pernahkah kau mengerti
caraku memujukmu
Pernahkah kau hargai
caraku mencintaimu
Lafasan kata dari bibir
Adakah ia dari hati
Mungkin kau tak fahami maksud yang tesembunyi
Titisan airmata dari pipi ke bumi
Pernahkah kau peduli betapa sedih diriku ini

Mengapa aku yang terluka
Aku yang merana
Aku yang menahan sisa baki cinta ini
Engkau yang meminta
Aku yang sengsara
Rimas rimas Aku rimas

Tinggalkan seorang kecundang
Istana jiwaku goyang
Roboh dan tumbang
Sawanku lantang
Tidak berpantang
Letupnya siang siang
Bukannya alang kepalang
Datangnya perang
Dan bawaku ke jurang
Pulanglah sayang
Janji ku tatang
Ku hapuskan dalang
Dalangnya sayang
Sayangnya hilang
Hilanglah garang
Garangku terbang melayang
Terbongkangku terbang kau terhoyong-hayang
Tak pandang belakang
Terkankang gilaku tak diundang
Ku rapuh semua tak bertiang
Janjiku kini kan bertulang

Lari lari aku
lari tinggalkan
Tuk mencari
Untuk mencari ketenangan
Aku pergi tinggalkan
Tinggalkan kau sendiri
Ku pergi..kini ku pergi
Tinggalkan mu sendiri


Rimas - The Fabulous Cats

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☮ 20070913 22:57


okay. i've bad news & bad news & bad news only.

vannessa hudgens' scandal
1 extra week of attachments
results will be out at 6AM on 1409
extremely high fever )X



ZAC: im gonna touch your butt
VANNESSA: huhh?

i dont know why this is even happening. she's only 19. anw, i still love her songs. not all though. sigh. one more week in CGH. hope i can survive it. im alone!

tml, the results will be out. sigh. hope that i'll pass all the modules..


"I think besides abiding by the terms and conditions of Ramadhan, I believe that life and living should go on as normal. Those who work, still have to go. Those who wanna play sports, go ahead. Life goes on, bilang semua orang. Selamat menjalankan ibadah puasa. -IMRAN AJMAIN"

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☮ 20070911 22:59


left 3 days. cant wait. but, results will be out on Friday. sigh. sigh. i hope i pass all the papers. sigh. anw...



This is what is written in the letter.

''Dear Helmy

I’m terribly sorry that this has to happen. I didn’t mean to give you a false hope even from the beginning. I think that we could be just a friend from the start. But didn’t think that you would get carried away with our relationship. I’ve always regarded you as a friend and nothing more than that. And further more, I cannot force myself to love you as the feeling of love didn’t exist inside my heart even just abit. I’ve already met the person that I love but unfortunately that person is not you. So I just hope that we could just remained as friend if you don’t mind. If not, I guess, this is the end and once again I’m terribly sorry if I’ve hurt you this much. And I hope that you can forgive me and I wish that you’ll meet a better person than me.

Goodbye.

Yours sincerely,'________'

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☮ 22:53


Mungkin ada yang mata ku tidak melihat
Mungkin ada yang dibibir ku tidak terkata
Biar hati ku dicabar harus ku bersabar
Marah yang dipendam jadikan rahsia

Cinta, engkau berpura-pura
Hadir mu ditemani kecewa
Lama ku diburu rasa curiga
Hatiku tidak menerima
Perasaan tidak seindah bahasa

Jangan dibiar berulang nya sejarah
Tidak kan ku beri lebih dari yang sedia ada
Pinta mu tujuh lautan, tidak ku kabulkan
Kini kau ingin pula timang rembulan

Cinta, engkau berpura-pura
Hadir mu ditemani kecewa
Lama ku diburu rasa curiga
Hatiku tidak menerima
Perasaan tidak seindah bahasa

Kira nya kesempatan kau beri
Diambil dengan cara sembunyi
Terbongkarlah isi hati
Fikiran keji mula mengisi
Kekosongan mendalam jiwa yang diuji
Engkau yang memungkir janji

Buah berangan masak nya merah
Kelekati di dalam perahu
Luka yang merah nampak berdarah
Luka di hati siapa yang tahu

Cinta, engkau berpura-pura
Hadir mu ditemani kecewa
Lama ku diburu rasa curiga
Hatiku tidak menerima
Perasaan tidak seindah bahasa


tidak seindah bahasa - imran ajmain

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he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20070906 22:54


i really need to rant. so much is kept inside. just hope that i can take it. sometimes, i feel that dying is so much better. sigh. after what happened in the ward and the previous 'thing', i rather slit my forearms again than recalling what happened. my heart is still aching. its so hard to smile and mean it.

i've been forgetting some recent memory this few days. sigh. everyday, i'll be standing outside the house checking & rechecking if i left smtg. im tired. i have those thoughts again. i think i seriously need to talk to someone about this. maybe.. i wont. im so tired. i wished im dead.


im selfish and i am what i say i am.


anw, took pics few day(s) back (:




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☮ 20070902 23:16


secretly, took some pics with norine & ramri.
PS: 10 days left (:














i guess i would never be watching Hairspray. im broke. i really do wanna watch it. that's why i asked. after what happened, i dont think i'll continue here...

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