today is slightly better. maybe bcoz Yee Joo & my friends were with me. honestly, i dont feel belong until today just like 2 years ago. sad, isnt it? after 2 years. i think i must be blind. sometimes, i feel like hurting myself again and again. it never fails to slip in my mind and makes me 'feel' the pain. its horrible, you know. it is. you cant think of this bcoz you're afraid it'll hurt you or your friends. you cant think of that also bcoz the same damn reason. so, your damn mind decided to think of the pain. im tired of pretending. for once, i just want to cry my heart out. maybe aft that, i could scream all the pain away. no, its not about love. its just that im still hating what i have had been in the past. everything is all over the place. its never over, i suppose.

sometimes, i feel as if someone hates me a lot. hating every bit of me. i guess you shld. if im someone else, i would hate myself too

Labels: attachments, borderline personality disorder

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥