im determine to lose weight. just stoppd for a while and tada the pics showed it all. im fat. im seriously fat. its pointless to remind me to smile now.







just to remind me again





then, the thoughts of self-harming is back again. Life is so horrible, for now. im so tired. im still distracting myself again and again. problems, problems, problems. sometimes, i feel like hurting myself again. i dont want to feel better. yes, i mean it. dont try. it'll make things worse. im seriously tired of myself. i hate you, RINNA. why are you doing this to yourself..? forget it. compared to others, im being damn selfish. its nothing compared to others. yes, the world doesnt / wont revolve ard me alone. im being damn selfish. its horrible. im insensitive. mayb im obsessed about my own damn problems. yes, that would be accurate. im sure of it.

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he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥