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20070430
08:46
its alr a week i last blog. been lazy or mayb i dont knw what to blog here. heh. yay to the 3rd week of year II. yay me for being sucky. been annoying the crap out of my sis. bleah. i suck like hell. call me EMO but pls add the word 'happy' in front. thank you. geesh. i've an hour or less to online and blog. i've been losing and gaining weight. it sucks. btw, the com in 'my' room is dead. guess, i wont be online at night anymore. anw, i dont hv to stare at the com in the dark. more time for my date with the damn books. dont knw if i make it. sigh. GOODBYE EVERYONE, IM NOT CMG BCK (maybe) here is a song to rmb me by (: Labels: rants he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20070422
23:26
today, i heard Desiree's interview with the 'T&V' of 987FM on the radio. it was woah. so touched. anw, im still looking at the elct. wtf. the elct is like a damn quiz. ask so many questions and put up a stupid link which i cant access. it sucks. sometimes, i hate doing smtg abt self-harming. it reminds me of the past. damn those memories. forget it. im meeting Asyikin tml. yay. its been a while. hope cld take pics together tml so i can post it on the net. haha. then, everyone will knw us, sisters. okay. for the two days, i ate like thr's no tmr. shld i be proud? I haven't slept at all in days It's been so long since we've talked And I have been here many times I just don't know what I'm doing wrong What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there There's only so much I can take And I just got to let it go And who knows I might feel better, yeah If I don't try and I don't hope What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there No more waiting, no more, aching... No more fighting, no more, trying... Maybe there's nothing more to say And in a funny way I'm calm Because the power is not mine I'm just going to let it fly What can I do to make you love me (What can I do to make you love me) What can I do to make you care (What can I do to make you care) What can I say to make you feel this (What can I do to make you love me) What can I do to get you there (What can I do to make you care) What can I do to make you love me (What can I do to make you love me) What can I do to make you care (What can I do to make you care) What can I change to make you feel this (What can I do to make you love me) What can I do to get you there (What can I do to make you care) And love me... love me 7x The Corrs - "What Can I Do" Labels: lyrics, random stuffs, the corrs he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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01:06
first week of the 2nd yr is weird. why am i acting anti-social? okay. i dont knw. stupid question. see ppl, sit near ppl, talk to ppl, dont knw what else i did. ppl are getting to knw me. OMG! anw, the BIO lect is... Dr Param. he rawks lah. but, it never fails to remind me of Amaths. it sucks. i always fail Amaths until 0lvls. dont knw why i got 5 grades higher than in sec3. see what course i took now. i dont have to use any Amaths formulae. it sucks, sometimes. anw, Dr Param's accent reminds me of dearest sec3 Amaths teacher, Mr BALA. he rawks oso lah. sigh. i suddenly miss those times, even though it hurts rmbing them. btw, i hope Asyikin is doing fine. if you're reading this, pls do take care.. note to self: DONT EVER DANCE ON THE ROAD IF THR'S AN URGE OR SOMEONE IS DOING SOME KUNG-FU DANCE. You don't have to move, you don't have to speak lips for biting. You're staring me down, a glance makes me weak eyes for striking Now I'm twisting up when I'm twisted with you brush so lightly and time trickles down, and I'm breathing for two squeeze so tightly. I'll be fine, you'll be fine. this moment seems so long Don't waste now, precious time we'll dance inside the song What makes the one to shake you down? Each touch belongs to each new sound Say now you want to shake me too Move down to me, slip into you She sinks in my mind as she sheds through her skin touch sight tastes like fire hands do now what eyes no longer defend hands to fuel desire I'll be fine, you'll be fine this moment seems so long Don't waste now, precious time we'll dance inside the song What makes the one to shake you down? Each touch belongs to each new sound Say now you want to shake me too Move down to me, slip into you Ooo, ah [x8] And I'll be fine, you'll be fine Is this fine? I'm not fine Give me pieces, give me things to stay awake (stay awake) What makes the one to shake you down? Each touch belongs to each new sound Say now you want to shake me too Move down to me, slip into you What makes the one to shake you down? Each touch belongs to each new sound Say now you want to shake me too Move down to me, slip into you Move down to me, slip into you ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS - "Dance Inside" Labels: all-american rejects, lyrics, randoms thoughts he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20070419
09:13
ytd would be the weirdest day in 18 years. i shall leave all the details. well, last night i woke up to a song. i forgot to switch off the radio. happy or sad that the song is played? whatever. since i hv time to blog at this time, so i decided to blog now. im going to sch soon. sigh. what a drag. We take sour sips from life's lush lips And we shake, shake, shake the hips in relationships Stomp out this disaster town You'll put your eyes to the sun and say, "I know you're only blinding to keep back what the clouds are hiding." And we might've started singing just a little soon We're throwing stones at a glass moon Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning, whoa-oh We keep the beat with your blistered feet And we bullet the words at the mockingbirds singing Slept through the weekend and dreaming Of sinking with the melody of the cliffs of eternity Got postcards from my former selves saying: "How've you been?" We might've said goodbyes just a little soon (Stomp out this disaster town) Robbing lips, kissing banks under this moon Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning, ohh… It was ice cream headaches and sweet avalanche When the pearls in our shells got up to dance You call me a bad tipper of the cradle Tired yawns for fawns on hunter's lawns We're the has-beens of husbands Sharpening the knives of young wives Take two years and call me when you're better Take teardrops of mine, find yourself wetter Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning FALL OUT BOY - "The Carpal Tunnel Of Love" Labels: fall out boy, lyrics, random stuffs he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20070416
21:15
i'll post the meaning of a word thats been in my mind for quite so time. psychopath (plural psychopaths)
im not a psychopath? Labels: randoms thoughts he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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19:20
today is the first day of the 2nd year. abit boring? nervous again. good thing that i didnt see that someone. just hear more info abt smtg. its disappointing. i still cant believe it. anw, my dreams of going to an ANGMOH's country to further my studies seems so bleak. im the new face of failure. Last year's wishes Are this year's apologies Every last time I come home I take my last chance To burn a bridge or two I only keep myself this sick in the head Cause I know how the words get you We're the new face of failure Prettier and younger but not any better off Bullet proof loneliness At best, at best Me and you Setting in a honeymoon If I woke up next to you If I woke up next to you Me and you Setting in a honeymoon If I woke up next to you If I woke up next to you Collect the bad habits That you couldn't bare to keep Out of the woods but I love A tree I used to lay beneath Kissed teeth stained red From a sour bottle baby girl With eyes the size of baby worlds We're the new face of failure Prettier and younger but not any better off Bullet proof loneliness At best, at best Me and you Setting in a honeymoon If I woke up next to you If I woke up next to you Me and you Setting in a honeymoon If I woke up next to you If I woke up next to you Me and you Setting in a honeymoon If I woke up next to you If I woke up next to you Me and you Setting in a honeymoon If I woke up next to you If I woke up next to you The best way To make it through With hearts and wrists intact Is to realize Two out of three ain't bad Ain't bad Me and you Setting in a honeymoon If I woke up next to you If I woke up next to you Me and you (Honeymoon) Setting in a honeymoon Me and you Setting in a honeymoon If I wake up next to you If I woke up next to you Me and you Setting in a honeymoon If I wake up next to you (Honeymoon) FALL OUT BOY - "I'm Like A Lawyer With The Way I'm Always Trying To Get You Off (Me & You)" Labels: fall out boy, lyrics he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20070415
00:14
things just happen. but, why cant be what you wanted? is it bcoz God doesnt want to shape us to brats? no, we wont. i guess.. maybe not. when you alr hv what you want, you always want more. maybe God wants us to cherish the things we have.. did we ever do it? well, i dont. mayb sometimes. Life sucks, at times. when it do, you wished that you have a controller to shut the ppl ard you and make them stop what the hell they are doing. plus, that controller cld make those you dont really wish them to be ard in your Life to vanish in thin air. do it? well, i do. Life will be so great. no worries and you dont have to think of the mistakes what you've done in the past. you and your love ones forever. sigh. dreaming, am i? no, im hoping for smtg that wld nv cm true. im positive of it. btw, i found the song. mayb, im shld just be happy and forget what happened for the last few nights. 'keeping us on hold should be the best way to solve it' i need you to define some words but, im still thinking.. Labels: randoms thoughts he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20070414
23:18
(4/14/2007 - 10:40:06 PM) - Personal Message changed: you dun mean what you say. (4/14/2007 - 10:23:03 PM) - Personal Message changed: sie verzeiht Ihnen nie. dient mich recht. (4/14/2007 - 10:25:08 PM) - Personal Message changed: als Sie nie feststellten, daß Sie mich mit Ihren Wörtern verletzen. he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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00:00
last night before was horrible. it continued again last night and ended. forget it. actually, i wanted to call 987FM SIWM. but, i didnt. sigh. anw, to help me forget it all.. im gonna blog some of the chalet pics.    for more pics, click here he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20070412
15:14
today is a SILLY-DAY. i, actually, wished someone 'happy bday' a mth before. felt so stupid. anw, its BRENDON URIE's 20th birthday. so, i decided to post his pics here. i ♥ him. haha.   Labels: bday, brendon boyd urie he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20070411
23:34
i spend the whole day in the room. too lazy to get out of the bed. everything went well. i'll suppress the memories. yes, i'll thank you. received a heartaching news. wonder why im not crying still. sigh. hope everyone will cheer up. btw, its over and its not good to think abt it so mch. pls, cheer up.. I'm gonna make you bend and break (It sends you to me without wait) Say a prayer but let the good times roll In case God doesn't show (Let the good times roll, let the good times roll) And I want these words to make things right But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life "Who does he think he is?" If that's the worst you got Better put your fingers back to the keys One night and one more time Thanks for the memories even though they weren't so great "He tastes like you only sweeter" One night, yeah, and one more time Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories "He, he tastes like you only sweeter" Been looking forward to the future But my eyesight is going bad And this crystal ball It's always cloudy except for (except for) When you look into the past (look into the past) One night stand (one night stand off) One night and one more time Thanks for the memories even though they weren't so great "He tastes like you only sweeter" One night, yeah, and one more time Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories "He, he tastes like you only sweeter" They say I only think in the form of crunching numbers In hotel rooms collecting page six lovers Get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes I'm a liner away from getting you into the mood, whoa One night and one more time Thanks for the memories even though they weren't so great "He tastes like you only sweeter" One night, yeah, and one more time Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories "He, he tastes like you only sweeter" One night and one more time (One more night, one more time) Thanks for the memories even though they weren't so great "He tastes like you only sweeter" One night, yeah, and one more time (One more night, one more time) Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories "He, he tastes like you only sweeter" FALL OUT BOY - "Thnks Fr Th Mmrs" Labels: fall out boy, lyrics he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20070410
21:43
the chalet was okay. it started out with a bump. overall, it was memorable. took a few pictures. too lazy to transfer the pics frm my bro's com. had to look aft my sis during the chalet. she had throat infection. anw, she's okay now. not taking her medicines. been nagging at her to take them. sigh. anw, i had another attack ytd. dont wanna talk abt it. it sucks. my head still hurts bcoz of the hitting. my results suck like hell. it was my fault, ytd. sigh. forget it. On the corner of main street Just tryin' to keep it in line You say you wanna move on and You say I'm falling behind Can you read my mind? Can you read my mind? I never really gave up on Breakin' out of this two-star town I got the green light I got a little fight I'm gonna turn this thing around Can you read my mind? Can you read my mind? The good old days, the honest man; The restless heart, the Promised Land A subtle kiss that no one sees; A broken wrist and a big trapeze Oh well I don't mind, you don't mind Cause I don't shine if you don't shine Before you go, can you read my mind? It’s funny how you just break down Waitin' on some sign I pull up to the front of your driveway With magic soakin' my spine Can you read my mind? Can you read my mind? The teenage queen, the loaded gun; The drop dead dream, the Chosen One A southern drawl, a world unseen; A city wall and a trampoline Oh well I don't mind, you don't mind Cause I don't shine if you don't shine Before you go Tell me what you find when you read my mind Slippin’ in my faith until I fall You never returned that call Woman, open the door, don't let it sting I wanna breathe that fire again She said Oh well I don't mind, you don't mind Cause I don't shine if you don't shine Put your back on me Put your back on me Put your back on me The stars are blazing like rebel diamonds cut out of the sun When you read my mind THE KILLERS - "Read My Mind" Labels: exams, lyrics, the killers he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20070404
23:48
im hearing 'IT ENDS TONIGHT' on 987FM right now. did some thinking today. im not going bck and that's final. mayb i shld wish them good luck.. i dont know. but, im not going bck this week. i just came bck frm outside a few hours ago. that James Morrison kept ringing in my head. btw, tml im going off to somewhere. dont think i'll blog until next Mon. anw, met some friends last night. they look so good.. unlike me. sigh. I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small I've been drawing the line and watching it fall You've been closing me in closing the space in my heart Watching us fading and watching us fall apart Well I can't explain why it's not enough Coz I gave it all to you And if you leave me now Oh just leave me now It's the better thing to do It's time to surrender It's been too long pretending There's no use in trying When the pieces don't fit anymore Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel Coz I've tried, yes I've tried Still I don't know why No I don't know why Why I can't explain why it's not enough Coz I gave it all to you And if you leave me now Oh just leave me now It's the better thing to do It's time to surrender It's been too long pretending There's no use in trying When the pieces don't fit anymore The pieces don't fit anymore You pulled me under so I had to give in Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin Well I'll hide all the bruises I'll hide all the damage that's done But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone Well I can't explain why it's not enough Coz I gave it all to you And if you leave me now Oh just leave me now It's the better thing to do It's time to surrender It's been too long pretending There's no use in trying When the pieces don't fit anymore The pieces don't fit anymore James Morrison - "The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore" Labels: 987fm, james morrison, lyrics he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20070403
11:20
Love love love love love love You were everything I wanted You were everything a girl could be Then you left me brokenhearted Now you don't mean a thing to me All I wanted was your Love love love love love love Hate is a strong word But i really, really, really don't like you Now that it's over I don't even know what I liked about you Brought you around and you just brought me down Hate is a strong word But I really, really, really don't like you I really don't like you Thought that everything was perfect (perfect) Isn't that how it's supposed to be? Thought you thought that I was worth it Now I think a little differently All I wanted was your Love love love love love love Hate is a strong word But i really, really, really don't like you Now that it's over I don't even know what I liked about you Brought you around and you just brought me down Hate is a strong word But I really, really, really don't like you I really don't like you Now that it's over you can't hurt me Now that it's over you can't bring me down Oh oh oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh oh oh All I wanted was your Love love love love love love (Hate) Hate is a strong word But I really, really, really don't like you (I really don't like you) Now that it's over I don't even know what I liked about you (liked about you) Brought you around and you just brought me down (Hate) Hate is a strong word But I really, really, really don't like you (Oh oh oh oh oh oh) I really don't like you (Oh oh oh oh oh oh) I really don't like you (Oh oh oh oh oh oh) I really don't like you (Oh oh oh oh oh oh) PLAIN WHITE T'S - "Hate (I Really Don't Like You)" he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20070401
18:36
You speak to me I know this will be temporary You ask to leave, but I can tell you that I've had enough I can't take it This welcome is gone and I've waited long enough to make it and if you're so strong you might as well just do it alone And I'll watch you go Step up to me I know that you've got something buried I'll set you free You set conditions, but I've had enough I can't take it This welcome is gone and I've waited long enough to make it and if you're so strong you might as well just do it alone And I'll watch you go Come back home, won't you come back home? You step in line, you got a lot to prove It comes and goes Yeah, it comes and goes A step in time, yeah it's a lot to move I know this will be temporary I know this will be temporary I know this will be, but I've had enough I can't take it This welcome is gone and I've waited long enough to make it and if you're so strong you might as well just do it alone And I'll watch you go I can't take it This welcome is gone and I've waited long enough to make it and if you're so strong you might as well just do it alone And I'll watch you go THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS - "Can't Take It" he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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16:03
ytd was boring. i had to acc mum to some cousin's wedding. dont knw a single damn person. anw, had a bad dream or smtg last night. sigh. Labels: random stuffs he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥ |