☮ 20070128 22:28


dear daryll,


something terrible happened. i was stupidily standing thr. staring at it all happened. thrs nth i cld do. why must it all happen when dad is no ard? maybe, he cld never take it like mum wld. my mum is the strongest woman i ever met, literally. she took it all and made it into a beautiful rainbow. sometimes, i wonder abt my smilies on the photographs. are they real or plain fake? i dont know. are we really happy when we're smiling? what is happiness? and so, i took some time to search for happiness on MSN Encarta. but, i found this..



Definition :

hap·py [ háppee ] (comparative hap·pi·er, superlative hap·pi·est)


1. feeling pleasure: feeling or showing pleasure, contentment, or joy
happy smiling faces

2. causing pleasure: causing or characterized by pleasure, contentment, or joy
a happy childhood

3. satisfied: feeling satisfied that something is right or has been done right
Are you happy with your performance?

4. willing: willing to do something
I'd be only too happy to help.

5. fortunate: resulting unexpectedly in something pleasant or welcome
a happy coincidence

6. tipsy: slightly drunk ( informal )

7. used in greetings: used in formulae to express a hope that somebody will enjoy a special day or holiday
Happy birthday!

8. too ready to use something: inclined to use a particular thing too readily or be too enthusiastic about a particular thing ( used in combination )
trigger-happy



Thesaurus :

happiness (n)


Synonyms: contentment, pleasure, gladness, cheerfulness, joy, glee, bliss, delight, exhilaration, ecstasy

Antonym: sadness



then, i googled for some HAPPINESS pics. but, i like this best. btw, the definitons seems wrong. maybe, something is wrong with me.


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he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20070127 23:02


its been a while. a week just passed. one ICA is over and one more to go. then, exams before the attachments. shld i say that im looking forward for my cmg bday? guess not. hope i'll get it over with, fast. something terrible happened. i dont wanna talk abt it. am i that complicated? or maybe im not direct and prefer to say things that are not specific. "but I will shy away from the specifics.." the song is so true. its exactly what i wanted to say in the past. i think of million things and one of them is smtg i have been wondering right now. heard Landon's song on radiomusicblog.com and the stupid com kept self-restarting. dammit. felt like smashing the CPU at that point of time. anw, it okay for now. btw, i really hope that i can find Landon's CD in Singapore.



Please dont do what I say
Cause if you dont love me, its worthless anyway
Please dont trouble yourself
You'll only go away in the end

Please dont follow all my commands
Cause what's the point in that
I keep hoping that all of your plans
Will fall through the roof

Like two ships passing in the night were gone
Only the moon and the stars in the sky did know
To cry for me
As I sailed on

Please dont trouble yourself
I only want your love
You keep giving me your help
Oh please stop playing along
You know your wasting your energy
And you're breaking my heart

Like two ships passing in the night were gone
Only the moon and the stars in the sky did know
To cry for me
As I sailed on

Oh I can just see it now (I can see it now)
You're recklessly in love
Your hearts boiling over
Oh I can just see it now
You're coming around

Like two ships passing in the night were gone
Only the moon and the stars in the sky did know
To cry for me
As I sailed on




LANDON PIGG - "sailed on"

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he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20070121 22:02


dear daryll,


finally, the attachment is over. yeah. 3 weeks fade away so quickly. met a lot of different ppl. actually, there is so much to share. but, i dont feel like it, right now. going bck to sch tml. anw, i went to YCKCC just now. took my bursary award. met an ex-CBSS friend. talked with her for a while. then, went to collect the cheque & refreshments. damn cheapskate. gave us only one meal coupon each. nvm. when i was abt to leave the place, they played Forbidden Love. reminded me of someone. hope life goes well for the person. btw, i heard a song on POWER 98. its nice. and here is one of the pics took during the last day of the attachment.




I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here... been waiting here

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know


Jesse McCartney - "just so you know"

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he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20070106 00:10


There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There're secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away...
Or maybe I'm just blind...

Or maybe I'm just blind...

So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone

Love me when I'm gone...

When your education X-Ray
Cannot see under my skin
I won't tell you a damn thing
That I could not tell my friends
Roaming through this darkness
I'm alive but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone

So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone

Or maybe I'm just blind...

So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone

Love me when I'm gone...

Love me when I'm gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone


when im gone - 3 DOORS DOWN LYRICS

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he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20070103 19:45


dear daryll,


my feet still hurts. the attachments start today. woke up at 0330 in the morn. prepared for work. went out ard 0600+. i almost collide w a lady. well, she didnt say anything. luckily, i looked up. i was super nervous. at the Yio Chu Kang MRT station, my right shoe fell off. damn paiseh. then, reached Simei MRT station @ 0705. waited for my friends to walk to the hospital together. the ward is slightly different than the previous ward. overall, it was okay. super tired. met new patients. nice, fussy, scary, quiet, friendly & blahblah. btw, whn i was walking to AMK bus interchange, it rained all of the sudden. then, a nice lady sheltered me. like an angel..


Feel like I'm stoned
wanna be alone, just for a while, unknown
Weeks on the road a long way from home
just shut off the phone

And you say I'll heal you,
I'll always be yours
and you say I'll kill you if I do something wrong
yeah, yeah, yeah ,yeah, yeah, yeah

Still feels like the first time
to stand here by your side
together regardless
we'll walk through the darkness
Still fells like the first day of my life

Remember the times
together we swore, never give up this life
still hanging on, still going strong
here I belong

And maybe I'm crazy
but I just can't slow down
And maybe I'm crazy

but at least I'm still around
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Still feels like the first time
to stand here by your side
together regardless
we'll walk through the darkness
Still fells like the first day of my life

Feels like the first day of my life,
(feels like the first day)
Still feels like the first day of my life

Still feels like the first time
to stand here by your side
together regardless
we'll walk through the darkness
Still feels like the first day of my
still feels like the first day of my
still feels like the first day of my life


first day of my life - THE RASMUS

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20070102 21:01


Hello boy it's been a while
Guess you'll be glad to know
That I've learned how to laugh and smile
Getting over was slow
They say old lovers can be good friends
But I never thought I'd really see you
I'd really see you again

I go crazy
When I look in your eyes
I still go crazy
No my heart just can't hold that feeling inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby you know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

You say she satisfies your mind
Tells you all of her dreams
I know how much that means to you
I realize that I was blind
Just when I thought I was over you
I see your face and it just ain't true
No it just ain't true

I go crazy
When I look in your eyes
I still go crazy
That old flame comes alive
It's starts burning inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby
You know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

I go crazy
You know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy
No my heart just can't hide
That old feeling inside
Way deep down inside
I go crazy
You know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

Crazy


i go crazy - DHT

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥