dear daryll,


ytd was a bad day. i went berserk and assaulted someone. think bck, it felt horrible. felt like hurt myself for doing smtg such as what i did ytd. i hope the person would forgive me. there's so much hatred. been having thoughts of cutting my face again. maybe eversince, i read what the anonymous typed on Kel's tagboard. someone actually hated me and i dont know what the fuck i did to he/she. everytime i think abt it, i wanna do it. i really hate myself, right now. guess, its KARMA. i deserve it..

another prob is my mum. she keeps saying "IF IM NOT AROUND ANYMORE, you...." i feel so frustrated. anyway, its true what she always say. the family wont be able to survive if she were to leave before dad. if she were to leave, i dont know what will happen to me. aft the incident ytd, my siblings and i are drifting apart. guess, i deserve it again...

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥