dear daryll,


today is my dad's bday. another year. sometimes, i forget how he looks like. i would try to rmb but then, i would feel depressed. all i rmb was him telling me to cut his dry skin of right leg which was almost peeling off. thinking of his leg. i dont understand why. how did he "get" leg? overheard a conversation. the person was on the phone. talking about my late dad. its very hurtful. i dont think i can forget what the person said about my dad. you know, each time i rmbs it, i feel like crying. sometimes, i think about my mum, too. if she were to leave.. i dont think i can survive, which reminds me of the Thailand trip. i rmbed tt she called. i felt like crying upon hearing her voice. at times, i would stare her when she's aslp.. she looked so peaceful. i feel calm and contented, looking at her.

anyway, today i received a letter from SGH. i got the sponsorship unless i agree and reply them by ASAP. i was kinda glad. guess, miracles do happen. then, i told my mum. she asked me if i can make it. i feel a bit disappointed and confused. i expect my mum to have some faith in me. believe in me and not ask that question. i really dont know what to do. to be honest, i really need the cash for sch and myself. but..

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥