dear daryll,


i just read some of the past entries i posted in this very blog. how pathetic. just realised how foolish i was in the past. i was sec 3. such an imbecile. made a lot of unforgivable mistakes. i cant deny about right now either. im still doing stupid things that hurt others. sometimes, i wonder why i never cut myself to death straight away. the scars. i will never forget what i did. my actions forced her to cut herself. so, i did to feel it too. the pain was unbearable. then, i felt the sense of fulfilment. as if i did something so great. but, it ended up hurting others; my family, friends, her & myself. im sorry.

right now, i feel contented. life seems to suffice. bcoz i always remind myself that
"you cant lose what you never had"

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥