dear daryll,


another day. went bck to my mum's hse. ytd, i slept at my 2nd sis' hse. had my breakfast-cum-lunch-cum-dinner there. quite tring. running to two houses in one day. well, learnt a lot during the polyclinic posting today. and it reminds me. i woke at 0615 today. took 265 and guess what. the ezlink left $-0.40. that's just great. to make it worst.. i had only $0.70 and a $10 note. damn paiseh. luckily, the driver allow me to aboard the bus. he showed me the fuck face, no doubt. i was wearing the uniform, btw. anyway. met some ppl on my way to somewhere. aft work, i walk and walk.. dont know where to go. i wanted to meet someone. but, i didnt. nvm. got home. tired. change and all. tml will be another day..

cont. again.. online again. suddenly, i rmb what my mum said. she told me that her job want to send ppl to China. haiz.. reminds me of the past. i was very young. she went to China oso. i missed her a lot. well, all i rmb is that i cried under the mirror table. think back its kinda silly. i dont rmb why i cried. mayb i really did miss her. had some thoughts. bad thoughts. like my dad 'going' before i could be a doctor/nurse. it always haunt me, though. esp when im alone. thoughts of death. i dont know what will happen to me. will anyone bury my body or just left lying ard? i hate this thoughts. its frightening. haiz...

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥