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20060520
03:03
Meant To Live by Switchfoot Fumbling his confidence And wondering why the world has passed him by Hoping that he's bid for more than arguments And failed attempts to fly, fly [Chorus] We were meant to live for so much more Have we lost ourselves? Somewhere we live inside Somewhere we live inside We were meant to live for so much more Have we lost ourselves? Somewhere we live inside Dreaming about Providence And whether mice or men have second tries Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open Maybe we're bent and broken, broken [Chorus] We want more than this world's got to offer We want more than this world's got to offer We want more than the wars of our fathers And everything inside screams for second life, yeah We were meant to live for so much more Have we lost ourselves? We were meant to live for so much more Have we lost ourselves? We were meant to live for so much more Have we lost ourselves? We were meant to live We were meant to live he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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02:32
dear daryll, what a week. tired arh. online late-late. haha. then, wake up late. WHY? tml, NO SCH! song bo!! getting used to the timetable. actually, very tiring leh.. 8AM-6PM. then, damn bloody long breaks. btw, the lower lvl toilets smell very BUAY TAHAN. haa. prefer the higher lvl toilets. not so.. HAA. hmm.. sian arh. ytd, went hm w asyikin and atiqah. i talked a lot lah. talk-talk. got hm. very tired. ygr sis used the com first. waited and waited for her.. almost fall aslp. so, here i am. blogging once again. he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20060511
20:28
These colors will not change You change the way I see them These words will fade when you explain why you hate them we are the same She keeps repeating all that she needed She says she's right here, she seems so distant Saying goodbye this time, the same old story Seeing you cry, makes me feel like saying sorry Just a few last hours, we gotta make this count We're counting backwards (Just a few last hours, we gotta make this count) We're falling forwards. She keeps repeating all that she needed She says she's right here, she seems so distant Saying goodbye this time, the same old story Seeing you cry, makes me feel like saying sorry Saying goodbye this time, the same old story Seeing you cry, makes me feel like saying sorry Saying sorry we're falling apart wish we knew this from the start Saying goodbye's the hardest part Wish we knew this from the start Saying goodbye this time, the same old story Seeing you cry, makes me feel like saying sorry Saying goodbye this time, the same old story Seeing you cry, makes me feel like saying sorry Saying goodbye this time, this time Seeing you cry, makes me feel like saying sorry he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20060508
20:54
dear daryll, tired. ytd, i cried. my younger sis tot that i was acting. i was REALLLY hurting. so broken up. wished that i never met you. haiz.. this sucks. i was totally blamed. tdy, i received this: #1) can you hear me cry? #2) i really cant take it anymore.. #3) i still care about you.. #4) dun avoid and run away from the prob.. it will only continue to hurt both of us.. #5) rinna.. please dun drag it anymore.. #6) why do you keep wanting me to die with you? #7) Death won't solve the problem. there are still others who loves you. if you die, it will only bring more sadness to them. actually, i received more hurtful SMSes. yeah. very hurtful. felt tt im the only one at fault. it hurts real bad. haiz.. i hurt my younger sis' feelings. yeah. i broke others' hearts just like that. so useless. he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥
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20060505
22:58
dear daryll, finally, i can blog again. actually, tdy shld be a better day, i just screwed the day. dammit. i had a long ay in sch. tired. to be honest, im still hurt by what she tot i said. i tired to tell her what is in my mind. it failed. she doesnt seems to react abt it. haiz.. very tired. sick of every stupid thing. im a loser. a stupid one. i can do nothing right. all i can do best is to hurt those i love. everyday, i wished tt killing is legal. i wanna kill them. end their misery. then, i'll willingly end my life. that's how i really feel right now. i couldnt make you happy. im sucha useless idiot. nothing can help me feel oh-so-greatly-better. i tried listening to music. its useless. i will never forget the cuts tt i made you did to yourself. i will never forget it. he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥ |