dear daryll,


today, i made my mum cried. what kind of a daughter am i? i really hate myself, right now. im sorry, mum. i love you.. very very much. im sorry. actually, she wanted me to get money frm the bank. i was being a rebel. haiz. its over. she's talking to me. i said sorry to her. it really hurt seeing her crying T.T i feel like an idiot. haiz. im sorry, mum. you loved me so much and i cant even help you a simple task. haiz. my existance brought misery to my love ones. im the main source of their pain. im tired. feeling so freaking useless.

WHAT I LEARNT? i must not hurt my mum's feeling anymore. aft dad's death, she seems all alone. she only hv us.

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥