dear daryll,


extremely tired. i actually feel sleepy before midnight. sleepless nights. hmm. woke up early. ironed my bro's clothes. then, bck to bed again. slpt for abt an hr. searched for my ATM card. i dont knw where is it. haiz. well, i didnt went bck to bed aft searching for the card. i dont knw what i did. hmm.. it was a fine day. slpt a while in the afternoon. hmm. just now i read her blog. it sad though. i felt like going bck. the guilt. how i wish she wld REALLY say those words in the FORTMINOR song. i dont care if it hurts. maybe, im used to the pain just to bring pleasure to others. i dont knw. maybe im still selfish. i really feel like SHIT. i feel so useless. she is hurting and there's nothing i can do. i did nothing. useless. haiz. we gonna meet each other in sch again. i dont knw what to do. shld i avoid her or just ignore? or just be myself? i dont knw. well, PING sending the POTATO song right now. ITS ABOUT TIME.. loll. thinking abt this song: "Let Me Go" by 3DOORSDOWN



One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me go...
Let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go

And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥