dear daryll,


hmm.. last SAT, i didnt go for the Escape w herr and Sheila. i still feel down. on FRI, i kept crying and crying. its kinda stupid. yeah. whatever it is. i really dont wish to rmb it anymore. well, she called me ytd. she wanted to talk to me. what's thr to talk abt? i wonder if she ever think abt what i typed in the sisters blog. i really hope she wld not be so dependent on me. its kinda.. haiz. my bro told me to avoid and ignore her for a mth. but, the guilt has grown stronger. haiz.. kept thinking of cutting myself again. haiz... forget abt the prob for a while. hmm.. ytd, one of my hamsters ran off. stupid. well, i found it bck. felt much better. HAA. oh YA. i got a WEIRD info. abt a THAI guy. very loll. haha. he's kinda nice though. i wonder if its true. i kept talking abt THAILAND, songs and his sister.. i LOVE his sister. i actually wished that i could really speak in THAI so tt i can talk to them better. haa. hmm.. right now, im listening to SIMPLE PLAN- Meet You There. hmm.. hope today will be a BETTER day. and i wld get the THAI songs frm him. loll. again.. i miss her.. i loewe her too. well, since i cant talk to her maybe i can talk to myself abt her then... loll.

what i learnt? nothing mch though. maybe.. i love SIMPLE PLAN songs. haha. hmm.. never give up until its REALLY over? yeah. NO GIVING UP. hope that i can make it. loll

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥