what a freaking day, ytd
went out w mum. but, sent my bro to TTSH. haiz.. scary. dunno why. waited and waited. sian. then, acc mum to her friend's child wedding. sian. then.. whatever. too depressed to tell everything. its not like anyone cares. if they do.. it'll only cause pain to them.. yeah. 101205. i broke her heart again. you hv been e one for me. all i do is to break e hearts of those who love me dearly. im so freaking useless. why am i here? its not you. its me. i hv a BIG prob w myself. what am i suppose to do? you know, theres more probs aft e 0s. thank GOD. at least it not during e 0s. mayb i'll go crazy.. wonder why i bcame like this aft e 0s.. more depressed. haiz.. i dunno. so mch happening. its like e yrs before.. quarrels and misunderstanding.. now, w new people in my freaking life.. i dunno. this yr, i made a lot of ppl cried for me.. im so useless. yes.. i am. i nv fail to put myself down each time. you know, i always wanted to cry.. i wanted to let everything go.. im so freaking useless. why are still with me..? why do you all love me so mch? im so freaking useless..

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥