hmm.. just now, she fainted.. haiz. i dont know why. actually, i already had a bad feeling.. guess i was right. haiz.. i wonder if she's all right.. really hope that she would get well and stop thinking tt im leaving.. i think mayb bcoz of e bandBBQ. maybe she tot tt they wld take me away.. haiz.. i dont know. im really confused and tired.. i dont know larhs.. e last time i met herr.. which on Mon.. i wanted to take a pic w me.. dont know why she was afraid to meet.. why? is it me..? haiz.. i really dont know.. i feel so hopeless and useless.. all the DAMN shit i gave her this two FREAKING years... haiz.. dont know why.. not gonna hurt her no more.. i promised.. to myself. no more. im gonna repay her kindness.. pls.. i dont know.. hving headache right now.. really tired.. but i cant sleep..

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥