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From : Nur Asyikin Rashid Sent : Saturday, July 02, 2005 2:31:40 AM To : rinna_oi@hotmail.com rinna... im sorry about my behaviour during recess today. mixed emotions were running in me. i dont know. whenever i look at the cuts on ur hands and face, it really hurts me. i couldnt bear to face you. remember how angry you were when i did the same thing in the past? im feeling the same way also. sometimes.. i really feel useless. do you know.. many of our friends asked me about you. but i became speechless. some even thought it was my fault. but i dont blame them. see. that goes to show that they care towards you. so why must you keep saying that you dont want other people's love that is given to you? not everyone is lucky like you. and please stop saying that i will never hurt you. rinna. im not a perfect human being too. and sometimes, people could even hurt the one who is dearest to them too. stop blaming yourself over everything. also, i felt bad because i couldnt attend your last concert. everyday, there would be friends asking me to go and support. but i keep rejecting them. when one of them got fed up.. she said "nvm.. she got timothy already.." umm. i felt like hitting myself against the wall. that shows how useless i am again. and.. im also worried about my mum. she havent regain conscious yet and i could only meet her tmr. im really sorry for everything. i know i have hurt you in a way or another. honestly, when you said you have given up on me, i felt.. i know i deserved it. im sorry. forgive me. asyikin... this is the letter which she wants to send u but she didnt........ he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥ |