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asyikinsentmeamemail.

dear rinna..

im sorry about yesterday. our msn conversation. yea. i guess i wasnt in the mood. is it okay if you could delete evelyn from your contact list? thanx. about your upcoming concert, i will come and support you from far. you dun have to bother about the black guy. umm. actually i have been longing for this holiday as a break from everything. i will try to recall every single memory. to be honest, for the past few days, i have been avoiding myself from you that i didnt want to online till yesterday. but again, we had a problem. im sure both of us didnt want this to happen. but rinna.. ever since the monfort guys came, you changed a lot. you seem to be more closer to your other godsiblings. i dunno. maybe its because of you, im changed too. i hope when i get to meet you again, i will get to see a change in you. only the old rinna can help me realise the true meaning of a sister and bring me back to the past where i came from. if you still prefer to be with your other godsiblings, go ahead. i will never stop you. like i said, seeing you happy makes me happy too. your happiness lies in mine. but if you still prefer to be this way, im sorry but to let go of our sister-ship. hopefully this wont happen. among all, this 'outstanding' sis of yours always give you nothing but problems. come to think of it, they are far much better than me. let this june holiday be a good break for us. think it over carefully. i wont be online these few days bcoz i feel that i will end up hurting you at the end of our conversation. im sorry. if we are destined to meet, we will. if not, we dun. yea. i will always be missing you. take care.


love,
asyikin

youknow? ireallyconfused. idunno. ialmostgotintroublewithleng. then, this. haiz. ithinkmaeproblemsareso great. well. HELLno. idunno. asyikin. ireallymissyou. iloveyou. why? whydoyouhavetothinkitthatway? honestly, ienvyirisanddenise. theyaresoclose. we? wehavebeensisters longerthanthem. andwearenothappywitheachother. idunno. itsnot thatwearenothappywith eachother. ireallydunno knowwhatyouwhat. yes. iknow. imveryclosewithmyothergodsiblings. whichislike one. amanda. thatsall. well, cozwearefromthesameCCA. andwhatstheprob beingtogetherwithher? whycanti? whyyouallkeepthinking thatialwaysleaveyouout? ididnot. ifyoufeelthatway, tellme. ineedtoknow. im notprefect. tellme. ifimhurtingyou, tellme. imsouseless. why? willanyoneknowhowifeel? willanyoneknowhowiREALLYREALY feelwhenimsmiling?

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥