☮ 20041028 21:37


hEy you!
oN 26 Oct.. i went to sch for bAnd only, remember? u know who i saw? him!! and his dear fwend.. Joakim.. ar.. Joakim said i ponteng.. hahaha~~ yes.. i tell him to hush// the person.. said i was going to banD.. but? how he know derr? hAhA`` yeshh!! i'm a BAD girl.. i din cum for school.. but can cum for bAnd.. so fun.. but i din know on that very day.. Firdaus hurt himself.. oH mY gOd.. why him? why not me?? i hope he is fine..

toDay.. mdm Sun.. is going.. yeaH... but.. i can't help feeling bad.. she is quite a good principal though.. what should i do? should i be happy? i could still remember.. i talked to her.. it was really late.. she was looking @ the pics outside the GeneraL office.. she looked so happy.. i asked her.. why she is not going home.. she said tt she had a lot of things to do.. it was before the sCh official opening.. everything she did was not ONLY for herself.. but for the whole sch population.. i'm wrong to dislike her.. but again.. i can't help disliking her...

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20041026 10:29


hEy you..
i din come to sch today.. i'll be DAMN boring one derr... nothing to do in class... no thingy to studying.. the teacher wun want to teach anything.. so SIAN.. later,, i'm going to baNd.. yEa`` i hvn't taken my C.O.P for the Austr. mathx comp. aiyah... mayb later @ sch i get from the wOnG... baNd starts @ 2:15,,, mayb i'll be out abt 1:45 pm... by the way,, Atiqah is online.. maybe she din cum to sch oso or... she's now @ sch..

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20041025 22:35


hEy you..
today.. i din go to sch.. late le.. no point.. later get pointless scoldings from the wOnG.. hahA`` anywayz.. v sian @ sch.. nothing to do.. but.. i miSSed a chance to be a GRACIOUS STUDENT/// aiyahxx.... the trip to the old folks' home was today.. so unfair.. xtreme unfair.. nvm.. it's life.. nothing is fair herre though// nevertheless,, there's another trip during Christmas.. i want to go... i really-really want to go... i want to help them... pls.. let me help them... Oh God-- give me a chance to be a better person.. i really wan to change... Please allow this human being to help other unfortunate human beings...

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20041023 02:49


dear daryll,


i just finished do the blog.. waoh~~ the lil kid is lookin out of the window.. and the song... so sad,, i almost cried hearing it of a few times... before berbuka yesterday.. XX called.. dunno why.. she kept reminding me of the person's bday.. you think i care? not @ all lorxx.. hAhA`` why should i care abt sum1 hu dun care abt me @ all? waste time.. all this love-love thingy-- making me crazy.. XX said that she want to say sorry to Wei Wen.. then,, say she dun want... so.. what she want?? Actually,, everything is all my pathetic and spastic brain fault.. what can i do?? i hv to be honest though... u know i'm bad liar... furthermore i was fasting,, i can't lie.. Arh! in the end, XX called Wei Wen and said sorry.. well... if she din say sorry to Wei Wen.. i'll be so puzzled.. i'll asked myself.. why XX could say sorry to Sheila, sum1 who we just know? i would not really believe any of the shit.. by the way,, i just passed my Chem paper... i'm saved... dunno if i go to Sub-Science or still in Pure.... i dunno orhxx... haizz.. hope today will be a better day... btw,, i had wish Craig "happy bday"... he said girls dunno what thing.. dunno what thing... continued tt he dun even know his crush's bday... wish him good luck for his O's and get str. A's...

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20041022 07:48


dear daryll,


Yesterday.. was so damn fun!! ahhaahahahahaha!! in sch, i played netball.. haha~ i can catch da baLL.. yeah!! hahaha!! saw the ChiA wear shorts.. too bad for XX.. hah who tell u to go to the course laalala~~heehee!! so tired.. run herre.. run therre...
todAy.. still got banD... no sch coz of the promotion thingy.. GULP~ will i retain? nO!!! tOuch wOOd lar!!

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20041018 20:56


hEy yOu...
my heart beating very fast..... just now.. the person tok to me... no!!! i can't!! i must stop!! no love!! i must hate love!! no!!

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 01:47
no LovE


hEy yOu...

wAhKaoxx... just now jhanz online but offline le.. that's the third time, i think.... oiE!! rnna!! you xiaO arH? uMm... dunno why... ever since i ask the Qn "hAve yOu bEeN in lOvE?" to him.. like.. i wanna know more.... xiaOkAoxx... i must be insane.. and aHboi say i can't use the internet too long already.... got problem... haixx... i waN to faLL in lOvE... and bE lOvEd... i got it,,, but it's either my family or godsister love..... no!!! i can't think till therre.... this have coz a lot of trouble already.. i musn't fall in lOvE.... no!! never!! cannot!! think of sQuaRe rOoT.. it's cAtcHinG up on yOu..... sQuaRe rOoT!! RuN a-Way~!!!

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 01:38


dear daryll,


ytd, i went the Masjid Bal' Alwi.. okiae... so tired.. mum & eldest/youngest sisters on their way home from Geylang.. i din wan to follow them coz i wan to use the com.. hAHAa`` XX is still ill... haiz... hMm.. wOnder if she had eaten her medicine anot.. maybe... maybe rite now.. she's sleeping.. 1 more day... bAnd and of coz.. can't see XX again.. miSs her worxx.. called her before berbuka... she was coughing... uMm... can't nag at her... i just remember......

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20041016 23:58
A dAmN sAd lOvE sTorY


A sad love story

As I sat there in english class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called 'best friend'. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before. I handed them to her. She said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I dont want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I dont know why.

11th grade, The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I dont know why.

Senior year, The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said, has not gonna go" well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together-just as 'best friends'. So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said- "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I dont want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine- but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as i hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said- 'you're my best friend, thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I dont want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and don't know why.

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say 'i do' and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said 'you came!'. She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I dont want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'. At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: "...I stare at him wishing he was mine; but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!... 'I wish I did too...' I thought to myself, and i cried.


DO YOURSELF A FAVOUR, TELL HER/HIM THAT YOU LOVE THEM. EVEN IF YOU DON'T KNOW HOW THEY'LL REACT JUST LET THEM KNOW HOW YOU 'REALLY' FEEL ABOUT THEM. THEY WONT BE THERE FOREVER. AND PLEASE PASS THIS ON TO OTHERS...THANX... :)

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20041014 15:18


hEy yOu..
wAhkAoxx... thE a.Mathx paper.. so difficuLt.. but AtiqaH say easy... ok la... i'm a GONER now.. gone case nak kate kan... NO!! i MUST jiA yOzz// iF she can do it, why not me? i'm not fail again is A.mathx anD cHem... i know i can do it... i just need to kick away all the bad habit.. and laziness... yES!! i can do it!! By the way..

StAceY's mOm hAs gOt iT gOinG oN...!!


he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20041012 14:26


hEy yOu..
hAhA... uMm.. i didn't get to finish the e.Mathx papEr 1 just now.. haiz... PhYsiCs pAper.... haizz... cannot.... can do lar.. but.. don't pass or not.. yesterday got A.mathx paper.. so scAred.... i think cannot make it.... but i got try every Qn... tomorrow got ChEm and e.mAthx paPer 2... i mUst jiA yOz/// i cAn do it... hAhA.... hAHA...
sTaCeY's mOm hAs gOt iT gOinG oN~!!

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20041007 20:43
uMm..


dear daryll,


oh my... the Social Studies paper... no hope... by the way!! i got 55% for A.Mathz cA2!! i paSseD.. finally.. but.. i didn't tell anyone... uMm... i should be happy.. haixx.. hEy.. for Eng paper I today i chose Q4i.. about a lonely girl... thinking of her loved one.. who had gone forever... hMm... maybe tomorrow i write the same story for MT paper... uMm... maybe about a lovelorn girl.. just now.. waited XX to online.. but someone else was online.. Huh~ she must be studying.. so hardworking.. i'm so useless.. everyday music... SiCk!! a few minutes ago.. i asked a Qn to mRcHiA... uMm... he didn't reply.. weLL..

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 03:20


dear daryll,


woAh... so tired.. just now was woken by Amira's crying... [22:59pm 06/10/2004] sleepy.... no choice hv to study.. today got Eng & S.S paper.. End-of-Year Examination.. so warm.. Yesterday.. Sheila wanted to go home with XX & me... i don't want... so.. extra.... Shirley also want to go home with us... i also don't want.... but.... no choice... Actually, i want to study with XX alone... no both S'es... by the way.. i found my Phyisics w/bk back... yeAh~ uMm... okiEs..

If you love someone, let him/her go... if he/she returns, your love was meant to be... if he/she doesn't, J U S T G I V E U P M A N !!!

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20041004 18:45


dear daryll,


today,, i had finished the BaLa onLinE aSsiGnmEnt.. about 1+ (i think) And mRchiA said:"hey rinna, dont study till too late...sleep early" to mOi... i was stunned... uMm.. after school.. he had remedial with 3A... i was waiting for XX.. she had e.mAthx remedial.. uMm,, i pluck up mOi courage to ask for the AnsWer shEet of the PhysiCs w/s.. mOi heaRt was beating very fast... hMm... XX also said that her hEaRt beats very fast when she talk to him.. finaLLy.. i left them with XX... i went to the Mathx study cornEr to do mOi e.Mathx h/w... Lucky for mrLenG, i sAw him cArryinG 2 flutes, 2 clarinets and 1 tenor sax cases.. i run and helped him... uMm.. i feLt bEtteR after helping mrLenG...

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20041003 01:57
sO sWeeT`


dear daryll,


today.. uMm... i meant yesterday we have cleared our problems.. YeAh... hAhA`` uMm.. doing the A.Mathxx online aSsiGnmeNt... SicKeninG.... arH... hAve Mendaki tomorrow.. i mean today.. SiAnzz.... so sleepy... Hmm.. she still doing her D&T projecT... just now,, she got stomachache... because eat spicy Mee Soto with an empty stomach... Silly girl... YeAh... i have maDe 88 hEartx for someone plus a biG hEart...

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥

☮ 20041001 14:49


dear daryll,


yesterday.. i went to Mr cHiA cHiN hAn remedial.... hMm.... okay... can understand.... but was distracted by Wei Wen... she kept passing paper to XX.... hMm... alright.... after the remedial.... XX & me saw that person..... oh.... well... so? i think she was annoyed... i know... how stupid of me... i could have ask her to walk to the shortcut..... then... i realize that i wanted to study for Social Studies... i thought of taking the book myself... but.. XX wanted to take the book... i know she wanted to avoid the person... i know...... then.. at MacD... i told her what i felt... she was about to cry.... her eyes were red...... i hate it! why can she take all the nonsense from Sheila like as if it was nothing? she was totally upset.....

he ate my heart, then he ate my brain ♥